I feel like I am always waiting.
Waiting for the day/week to be over.
Waiting for Spring Break.
Waiting for the semester to be over.
Waiting until graduation finally comes.
And I'm not just waiting for those things to get here...
I'm waiting for them to come so I can do something else. I feel like these things have to come..especially finishing school..for God to be able to do something. I honestly feel like school is holding me back.
It's not true.
I know that this is where the Lord would have me be, but I haven't been able to shake the feeling.
I guess I have always been hung up on my performance. If I do this, God will do that. or I have to do this, so God will do that.
It's junk. Not true.
Jesus, undo my thinking.
Pain
The gift nobody longs for, still it comes
And somehow leaves us stronger
When it's gone away
Pray
I try and pray for Your will to be done
But I confess it's never fast enough for me
It seems
the hardest part is waiting on You
When what I really want
Is just to see Your hand move
(Chorus)
I want a peace beyond my understanding
I want to feel it fall like rain
In the middle of my hurting
I want to feel Your arms as they surround me
And let me know that it's okay
To be here in this place
Resting in the peace that only comes
In the waiting
Time
Time to let it go and just believe
Trusting in what no one else but You can see
Free
Freedom from the fears that close me in
When I can't get beyond where I have been
But then again
The silence doesn't mean that I'm alone
As long as I can hear
That I am still Your own
(Repeat chorus)
In the waiting...
[In the Waiting-Greg Long]
The gift nobody longs for, still it comes
And somehow leaves us stronger
When it's gone away
Pray
I try and pray for Your will to be done
But I confess it's never fast enough for me
It seems
the hardest part is waiting on You
When what I really want
Is just to see Your hand move
(Chorus)
I want a peace beyond my understanding
I want to feel it fall like rain
In the middle of my hurting
I want to feel Your arms as they surround me
And let me know that it's okay
To be here in this place
Resting in the peace that only comes
In the waiting
Time
Time to let it go and just believe
Trusting in what no one else but You can see
Free
Freedom from the fears that close me in
When I can't get beyond where I have been
But then again
The silence doesn't mean that I'm alone
As long as I can hear
That I am still Your own
(Repeat chorus)
In the waiting...
[In the Waiting-Greg Long]
2 comments:
Hi! I clicked on over to your blog from the Relevant forums, and this post caught my eye because I've written scarily identical entries in my own journal. Literally... one of them started: "I feel like I am always looking forward... [list of things I was waiting for]"
Though I'm done with school and am currently working, I too feel like God has placed me in this period of my life as "preparation" for something else down the line...
Anyway, I'm really enjoying working through this booklet. It's a study of the lives of Joseph, David, and Jesus, all of whom went through years of preparation and waiting before they fulfilled the things God had for them to do. I think the study's supposed to be used in a group, but I just use the discussion questions as a launching point for journaling.
Blessings,
Shayna
P.S. the week is almost over :)
Well written article.
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